http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/ Str!pped Wed, 31 Oct 2007 20:10:00 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2007. http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/80.html Thu, 01 Nov 2007 01:05:30 GMT Complicated melody…. Man I thought I was in a place where it didn’t matter what you said to me…I didn’t want you, didn’t need you, and if we never spoke again I would be good. I got to a point where I was observing military silence. I didn’t speak your name and I didn’t want to hear your name. Then I got to a point where I was no longer bothered. It no longer irritated me to hear your name and I felt like I could talk to you again. Truth is, I missed your voice. I would call on occasion but for the most part, I would hit you on the IM. Instant messenger was safer. I felt like I could... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=80 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/78.html Wed, 31 Oct 2007 19:26:44 GMT My first love Talking to you this past week has done me some good. I am glad that we were finally able to take the time and have our conversation. It was good for us both to get out exactly how we feel for one another and why things played out the way that they did. It used to bother me when you'd tell me you loved me. I know what it used to mean when you used to say it and how it used to make me feel. But things have changed and u changed it, so I didn't understand how you could still tell me that you love me. I understand a lil bit better after our conversation. I knew things weren't... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=78 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/79.html Wed, 31 Oct 2007 19:23:40 GMT When I think about you I can’t help but smileThe mere mention of your name Raises my temperature 10 degreesThe sound of your voiceHas the power to calm and exciteat the very same timeYour lips are the softest and sweetest I have ever tastedYour touchfeels as though your hands were created to touch my bodyYour arms,created to hold and keep meWhen we’re apart I count the seconds until I will be back safely within your armsYour eyes pierce thru my disguises and see what lies beneathI could gaze into your eyes foreverYou have me spellboundI am amazedby your enchanting personalityYour beautiful... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=79 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/76.html Tue, 24 Jul 2007 20:28:56 GMT This year has had more twists, turns, highs and lows, than I've had in a while. I finally understand what everyone was saying when they say stay a kid as long as you possibly can. Things only get harder, more complicated and convaluded. I am noticing somethings about the persons I have choosen to surround myself with. Family, you dont choose, friends, you pick and that why it hurts so much when a friend turns out to be something other than what you expected them to be. This year has definitely proven to be a test all the way around. A test of my strength, loyalty, and pacience. I've got to... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=76 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/75.html Tue, 10 Jul 2007 20:06:16 GMT July 11th 9:25am: eventhough I'm hurting, confused and frustrated, I still walk around thinking about you and saying that I love you...please lets fix this soon... I really can't even fully wrap my mind around the events that have transpired in the past 96hrs. 120hrs ago, my life was great, everything made sense, I was so in love that conversations of the future, marriage, kids, moving, all felt natural. But today, I'm in an unnatural state of mind. I feel hurt and I feel disrespected. Eventhough we have talked and "resolved" our issues, my issues still remain. We only fight about... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=75 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/73.html Fri, 18 May 2007 18:02:14 GMT I seem to be having the toughest time this week, just functioning, and I don't know what to do. Feels like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't... The week started off....ok. I had seen my baby so it was all good, right??? Well...not exactly. I was all up in my feelings about having to "let him go". I wasn't ready for him to go when he had to leave, so I acted, a lil bit outside myself. I was giving him short responses, if I responded at all. That's not like me, but I didn't know what to say, I figured it was better if I didn't say anything, to avoid saying something I might... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=73 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/72.html Fri, 16 Mar 2007 17:45:12 GMT Right now I am one great big giant ball of emotion. Some of its my current environment, some of it's stress, with a twist of nervous energy. A good deal of it is attributed to Love. I never stopped loving, Love. I couldn't. Walking away, was by far one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in life. Harder than graduating from High school or College. It took more courage than I knew I possessed, at the time. It took everything in me not to call you up the next day and every day that passed, 387, and tell u that I had made a mistake or that I missed you or that I loved you or just plain... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=72 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/71.html Thu, 15 Feb 2007 15:54:20 GMT To some it's a day of love, to be spent with someone you care about or possible to reveal to a secret crush how you feel about them. To others its a commercial holiday used by greeting card companies and candy manufacturers to increase sales between Christmas and Easter. Who's right, who's wrong? I am still undecided. It always seems to come across bitterly when someone says that they hate Valentine's Day. Yes often times the person is single when they say it, so there could be some bitterness involved, but I like to give people the benefit of the doubt and say that for one reason or another... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=71 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/70.html Thu, 25 Jan 2007 23:17:48 GMT So clearly keeping things that bother a person inside isnt a good idea. It does nothing but build and build and build until one day the person who has been holding back all their frustrations finally blows a fuse and lets all of the pent up frustration and anger come flooding out at the latest source of irritance. Life is a matter of perspective and is all about choices. The good, the bad, and the in between. With that being said if I become frustrated by something that you may or may not deem to be worthy of having a fit over, I am well withing my rights to have a fit over it. Don't you... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=70 http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/archive/69.html Mon, 22 Jan 2007 20:17:30 GMT All it took was six months and I have come full circle. Ive gone from not wanting to talk to you to talking to you all day, everyday. Somedays you are all I think about. Quite frankly I am a grouch without u. I have come to depend on having u as a central part of my life everyday, especially at night, that I dont know how to act if you're busy and cant "tuck me in". Runaway with me my love forget everything all you'll need is your mind to survive lets travel to distant lands and discover each other lets walk along the beach hand in hand sand beneath our toes a gentle breeze... (more) http://fysikalluv.blogdrive.com/comments?id=69